long time no post

i'm pretty sure i'm not a natural blogger. i haven't blogged since the day i started my account. what a failure. burn to myself.
i recently stumbled upon a new friends blog & she inspired me to start blogging! so here goes (don't persecute me if i fail miserably lol)
life has been a whirl wind the past...2 months. so much has changed, not so much a good thing, but i'm definitely being stretched.
something i learned today in chapel. very unexpected, and VERY humbling:
We tend to delight in God's sovereignty until His sovereignty conflicts with our desires. He's always leading us to deeper trust.

that basically explains my last 2 months. when everything seems to be going great we tend to put God in a box, in my case, in the crate under my bed. so not ok. so not the reason we were even created. we were made to glorify Him in the good & bad times, the stressless & stressful times, the confused & understood times. why is it that only in the "bad times" (when in reality, there's nothing bad about them at all, i'm just a baby) do i actually HUNGER for His word? Joy comes only from the Lord. So why not desire His joy in every situation?
every year. every month. every week. every day. every hour. every minute. every second. so why's it so hard?

i'm not giving my all to Him. He wants it. i'm not giving over my life completely. i must trust Him. God is good.

This song has been an encouragement to me a lot lately & i want to be able to honestly sing this to my Lord.

Beholding Your beauty is all that I long for, to worship You Jesus is my sole desire.
For this very heart you have shaped for be your pleasure, purposed to lift Your Name high.

Here in surrender in pure adoration, I enter Your courts with an offering of praise.
I am Your servant come to bring You glory, as is fit for the work of Your hands.

Now unto the Lamb who sits on the throne, be glory and honor and praise.
All of creation resounds with the song, worship and praise Him, the Lord of lords.

Spirit now living & dwelling within me, keep my eyes fixed ever on Jesus' face.
Let not the things of this world ever sway me, I'll run 'til I finish the race.
-Lord of Lords by Brooke Fraser-

encouragement for well, the next blog:
psalms 34. read it. pray. meditate on His word. He is good.
delaine.